I don't know where to go from here, i really don't.

More times than not i just feel like a fucking loser still living at home leeching off his parents, no job, no money..no real goal for my life just passions and dreams, no girlfriend, no stability...

I'm thankful for the friends i have, only thing really keeping me going... and at least i can relate to SOME people out there in the same fucked up situation that i am in.

It's been getting very irritating scrounging along to get by these days, more times than not i really have to take the cheapest way out.. like taking advantage of coupons and such..and using my discretion when it comes to going out period.. it kinda sucks going to a club at all and only being able to afford their stupid cover charge to get in though i suppose that's why i don't bother anymore anyways I'd rather a pub if anything at least then I'd be lucky to get something small to eat or a pint at the most.

What's just as shitty though is living somewhere that doesn't stock up too often so there's not really ever anything to eat or drink, I'm not taking my situation for granted by any means, there's no greed here and i could be worse off but even with out my existence my parents would be struggling too so it's kind of ridiculous living at all.

I have been trying my hardest in finding a job but lately it has been so fucking difficult for me because of this dick nosed recession and nobody even giving my resume a second glance let alone a first, getting so sick and tired of interview after interview and not getting anywhere...

I also realize that none of this is attractive for any girl really and what's even the point of hoping for something to come along when you can't even support it...oii again just one of the many dreams of mine. blah blah blah.